(10-13-2019, 02:08 PM)WillE Wrote: I kinda admire people in this industry. It's so tough, so unpredictale. I chose a more stable lifestyle and that's exactly why I constantly wonder how people can live such lifes and still be happy - or to be more precise: how unflexible I am to not be able to imagine me living like that without freaking out
I have just known all my life I am not a typical 9-5er... I get bored quick and that is what would make me depressed, before. I like new and exciting challenges. I designed my first website in the 90s as a teen, and then began to program in various code from html to javascript, to basic/qbasic/vbasic, to c++ ... and then I went into music, and began to make beats for hip-hop, and would engineer artists and manage them, which is how I owned a small rinky-dink independent record label haha but it was great experience for me. I then created a music blog/social media network in 09-11 that was doing really well and tied in well with multiple facets of the music industry. I began to interview and work with top musicians in the industry. Then I took some time off from it all as the music industry was never really my main goal nor what made me happy. I am not a musician, I like music but I have been writing all my life and always felt film is my true medium but I couldn't afford to own the equipment to practice or learn.
So I went through some rough things with my health and life break-down stuff as I was just not handling my 20s well haha... but after a near-death bout with cancer it pushed me to finally go for what I have always wanted and that is working in film and making movies. I knew I didn't have the skills yet, so I decided to get myself into school to learn how. I am aiming for one goal and I won't let anything get in my way. All of my life I have been building to this with all these various skillsets. They help me as a filmmaker and business owner to handling all of these tasks while I get started... and then all of the wild-life fails and experience just helps me as a storyteller...
so to me? its this or nothing.. and I will work at it till I die. Nothing makes me happier to do so.